Martin Roscoe - the online friend 

invisible

he doesn't know he is my friend but i follow him 

i stalk him

i wait for his comments online

i look for his comments

i look for him

i find him

i arrange a meeting

im excited 

im very excited 

it's 4.45pm

im early

i wait

is this the right place?

yes

is this the right time?

it is

5pm

5.05

5.23

can i have another coffee please?

5.37

6.01

we are closing soon

can i have one cup more?

i've just turned off the machine, sorry

it's fine

i get on the overground

Martin Roscoe didn't come

maybe he was shy

maybe it was too far

i go online 

he is offline

he is offline the next day 

and the day after

and the next

and the next

and the next

my online friend Martin Roscoe has disappeared 

can someone who has never been there disappear?

i feel numb and sad and numb and sad

i got attached to a retired man online

that sounds weird

creepy

i cry in the shower and my family come into the bathroom and watch me cry and tell me it's okay and 

hurry up we have to go

do you want to dry your hair

i want to sleep a hundred years and wake up and realise all the pain is gone

we have arrived to our destination, please make sure you take all your personal belongings with you and hope you enjoy your stay in Barcelona

i sure will